clarity doesnt always come with light

A single entity in a large mass of black nothingness.
Light emits from the vast range of knowledge behind you.
You can barely recognise your own hand in the light.
So you question your reckoning without reason.
Your own place without purpose.
You feel lost, helpless lonely.
Then in an instance you see a beacons heading to wards you.
As it moves closer you grow anxious, nervous but
At the very same time excited and a tad relieved.
You blink.
In an instance, time is loss.
What was far off was not right in front of you.
Unrecognisable, he asks only one,
"Is the meaning of your name 'friend'?"
You are confused. But you answer,
"No, it means 'truth'"
A snicker comes from him.
Out of loathe or dejection you'd never know.
The light was never really there.
He picks up another light from behind you,
And wonders off.
Leaves you alone, as lost and as helpless.

goal of the year

Don't burn out till after A's
Same as O's. Just get there.
How the results come out depends.
Just work within limits to get there.
Without burning out.
No die outs allowed.

Just so tired.
Drifting to sleep now....