A sea of emotion. A storm of thoughts. Looking for the calmness of solice.

I am amazingly confused emtionally. I really haven't a clue what I'm feeling or even how I should be feeling. It's like certain things are right but some don't even make any surmountable sense to me. Like I said confused. Like totally. Just my whole life is a bit of a whirlpool. Don't really know what to do or where to start or even if I should do something? But maybe it will all pan out? Or maybe I'm screwed. School on top of all these like emotions is definitely not helping at all. But that's life I guess just how you take it to be. Could all eventually turn out tone pretty awesome. Hmmmmmm. I'm tuthfully confused and an utterly shameless to declare it here that I do not get the opposite sex otherwise known around the wolrld as girls. If they like a dude can't they just go ahead and make it known to the otherwise clueless dude. Then by the time he gets it that she's into him he's suddenly too slow to react only cause apparently all girls think guys are like freaking magic mind readers. I think it's kinda dumb. But I guess girls are kinda awesome still. But they should totally give guys like a. Slight break for us to catch up with th cause we aren't necessarily the like the smartest people around. Like seriously. I'm just ranting but it's only cause I'm not sure what to do. And it sucks to have this feeling. And I still have to pack my bar for kl. Homygoddd. So screwed. Life for now kinda sucks. But I'm sure things will look up soon. Time to think positive!

Words.

This is going to be a really random post. But i don't know why, seems like something just took over me.

I sorta need to compel this fact to others.
Something people today have forgotten, or maybe just do not appreciate.
It's the power of words.
Words in themselves do not really mean much except maybe for the dictionary meaning that they carry. But the way people use them and the great people who do use them. It brings a certain amount of presence and power that can break boundaries. Through barriers of communications. One cannot help feel empowered by words, anyone can utter the words "I have a dream," But would it really matter if i said it or if you said it or if our parents or lecturers say it. Usually the answer would be no, but there is a chance that the answer is brought through relatively. Through the power of these words, a great man's inspiration is set to and resonated through out the world. These simple words carried an embodiment of what one believes in. To fight for something he believes in. And he did this through words. Words break through unseen barriers of the mind. Barriers of ignorance and hatred. Words have the ability to melt the coldest of opinions. The power of words are awesome, unfathomable awesomeness. It has been used from the day the language was formulated. Words are timeless and if put to the right use, is the unstoppable force that every person in this world is entitled to. No one has the right to limit any other individual from being able to own that power. Words are the insurmountable force within anyone which is thoroughly under appreciated, understated and misjudged. Words are just letters put together, but with purpose, they are unstoppable.

Dead.

I think it suffice's to say this blog is d-e-a-d?
I would guess so. Since jc is taking up way too much of my time. Especially soccer, like the training times are obscene. Alas, they are fruitful. I've been starting to lose weight! Is that awesome or what? I know you're all saying AWESOME!

Well anyways, life has been really, really mundane. Like its study, soccer, sleep, study, soccer, sleep, study, soccer, sleep. But theres always time to fit in a'lil sight-seeing! Haha.

So sadly, that is my life.

I almost forgot. As awesome h2 lit students. We like are going for plays every other week. And it has been throughly enriching!

Hectic

I haven't blogged in an awefully long time, but that's only bcause school has been über time consuming. From the lectures and tutorials in school and the cca's and stuff. School has just basically been way too big a shock. But I'll adjust soon enough. Just depends on how long. And I dearly hope it's not that long.

Apart from that, I was out like studyin/doing homework just now. And mind you it's only the end of the first academic week in school. Well anyways, I manage to catch up with quite a number of people today. All in all I met Jo, Jade, Nisa, Su, Shaz and coincidentally Venice. So basically today was a paticularly random day. Filled with a little GP and history I think.

Oo yea. I'm supposed to blog about my awesome friend Jade.
So there it is Jade, I just blogged about you. You should be damn honoured man.

The last thing I sort of want to blog about would be a thought that stuck me as I was on the way home and I took a long deep look into the sky. It was almost dusk, so it wasstill bright out just that you couldn't actually see the sun. As I as the clouds mulling over into the horizon. I felt a sense of awe come over me. Like I basically stood there for two seconds staring into the sky with my mouth wide open, till some nyomya walked past me and I realized I was standing in the middle of the sidewalk. The only thing I was thinking then was how huge and vast this world was, then that got me thinking how awesomely large the universe is. It kinda makes you feel small like all your effortin life is useless cause u possibly wouldn't make a difference in it anyways so why bother? But then again we are the only humans on this earth, so maybe all our efforts aren't all that insurmountable? Well all I know is essentially everyone has something planned for their life. No matter of it affects the world or just the few people around them. Everyone in this vast universe has some sort of purpose. And we should all work towards that said purpose, all I know for sure right now is that I gtta get through JC. So that's all folks. Random rantings from my weeyerd mind.


But you don't like Batman. That may pose as a problem.

Mind Blowingly Weeyerd

So, the first week of JC has been pretty alright. We were in our og's for the first week, but since we knw of our cg's already. Orientation on monday is gonna be with our new cg's. N like i said in the previous post, i got the subject combination i wanted. So i just hope that my cg is gonna be awesome.

Basically what we did for the first week was hav the 'academic orientation'. And next week when we get into our cg's, we're gonna have our 'fun&games orientation'. Or so our level head mrs soh says.

The break down of the week would be, we had ice breaking games, college tour n introductory lectures. Which i have to include, our gp lecturers are psychotic. On the first day of introductory lectures, the first lecture of the first day might i add. I walked into the lecture theatre still half asleep, expectin a slow and mundane lecture about how integral gp is to our A level curiculum. But boy was i wrong. I was very awake during the lecture.

So this is how it all went. After we sat down at our places, the teacher told us to take out our notepads. So i thought to my self. "I guess she wants us to take down some notes or something like that, no biggie". Then she flashed this piece of paper on the visualiser, it had three essay questions on it and a set of instructions. And basically it meant we had an essay test. Then she said, you have 45 minutes to write a 400 word essay, you may begin. And i was thinking to myself, "Holy shit!! Is this bitch serious?", and apparently she was. Boy was my right wrist hurting after that. Might i also add that i wrote a shitty essay. Stoopid weeyerd psychotic gp teachers.

Apart from that little incident everything else has been pretty normal like in a fun way.

So about the title of this post, i had this weeyerd dream last night. It was about a friend but in a different light. And it was teetering between weird good and weird bad when i awoke. But i still havent decided yet. Maybe it was the two pop-tarts and the can of doctor pepper i had before sleeping caused this. Yeaa thats probably it.

I'm hoping that my cg is gonna be fun and awesome, maybe even enthusiastic.

H2 Lit, here i come!!

JC

Well then, i guess the dawning of the new phase of my academic life has come.
I am officially a student of a junior college.
I'm in a class with the subject combination of AEHN/M1.
For all of you who dont understand tht, I'm basically taking
H2 Lit, Econs n' History H1 Math.
I guess the curiculum will obviously be tougher.
But for some odd reason i feel like I'm ready to take them on.
Especially for Lit, for some reason i feel like I can do awesomely.

But i have to go for now.
I shall blog about orientation soon

P.S
Mayb not 165 and mayb not so colourful sneakers.
But maybe awesome?

Purple Line

So we got our posting results on Friday, like I got mine at freakin 6:11AM. Like who the fuck is awake at that time? Anyways to cut everything short I got into SRJC. I got screwed over by TPJC cause their principal doesn't wanna accept any more sports appeal cases. Actually the bitch didn't accept any unless your in performing arts. Like WHAT THE FUCK!! Do I look like I can do any form of performing arts? What d' you expect me to be in, huh? Malay dance? I think I'll have a better chance in Chinese dance!! Haha.

But really I don't really mind being in SR, sure I won't be able to play softball anymore. And that really saddens me, but that's life right?
I'm sure something awesome's gonna happen during my time at SR. And I guess JC is also a time to break boundaries and share new bonds. Another weird thing would be if I take the same subjec combnation as my older brother, we would like have the same fucking teachers. That would be so fucking weird! And imagine on literature night. If my brother comes back to sch then we would both be there. And that is just majorly weird. Like totally.

But other than that I guess life isn't that bad. I finally got a backpack. And I also got a free pencilcase together with the bag. Plus the bag had a discount. And thanks shaz for teman-ing me to get the bag. But u also like waste time ah?? We went to 4 different flash n splash's to get the rip n curl( only shaz will get this, cause she's abit of a weirdo! Haha) bag which we could have gotten at the first one. But I guess it was pretty fun since she also makes weird noises! Haha. Yea, but I still want a leather backpack. Maybe next year? Or next semester? Hopefully.

So I guess I'll see y'all soon.

P.S
165&above+lovescolourfulsneakers=AWESOME!